I have been pretty thankful that this holiday season I am not seeing any negative changes to my body. Today I am working on my last essay final and then FREEDOM!
I haven’t actually lifted weights in 3 weeks, and I haven’t run in a week. That is pretty pitiful considering I used to hit the gym six days a week. My body does need a rest with all the finals, so it has worked out better this way. Starting today though I am going back to weights and my running goal =] I can not wait.
I wanted to go ahead and address this message. A week ago I received this and it very much bothered me. I do not know who sent me this, I figure it must be someone I know in person who has actually seen my “booty”, but who the hell knows.
What I want to say about this is that my workouts and clean eating(mostly) isn’t to lose all my “blubber”.
I started my new fitness transformation because I have always been a skinny girl and ate whatever I wanted, it was great. A few summers ago I was eating a cupcake almost everyday because I was obsessed with baking. I noticed that I was always tired, sluggish, and having very bad bathroom experiences (sorry for tmi!). I also gained about 30-40 pounds in a few months. I wasn’t fitting into any of my clothes and that was depressing and uncomfortable.
I figured out I had a gluten intolerance and this made my life miserable. I loved sweets, breads, and unhealthy crap. Everything has gluten, and I was forbidden from eating it unless I wanted to spend a good 20 minutes in the bathroom. I figured this out while living in another country, and it was definitely an emotional struggle. I started to research healthy foods and options for someone intolerant of gluten. I really had to make a lifestyle change.
When I came back from Wales by fiance asked if I would like to workout with him. I had already cleaned up my diet, but he really had a very healthy diet and I decided to join him in both aspects. Within a few months my energy levels changed greatly, and I was proud of my lifestyle, and of course the body I was transforming.
After I lost that weight I gained my goal was totally different. It was no longer to go back to where I was, but to be BETTER. I wanted to FEEL better, LOOK better, and be able to be a more athletic girl.
Anyone who knows me, knows my athletic abilities are not my strong point. BUT now I am more athletic. I feel like I could climb a mountain, ride a bike easily through the hills, and kayak in crazy rapids. I did these things abroad and I did ok, but there was some struggle. Now I am READY to take on ANYTHING.
I am proud of how my body looks, and I am sure my progress photos come off narcissistic at times. But I am fucking proud of my transformation and I don’t think I am losing my booty in pursuit to lose my blubber.
I think I am a girl who has made a journey for the healthier lifestyle and frankly the only person’s opinion my my booty that matters is my fiance, and he freaking loves it.
I would also like to say that if you have the nerve to send something like that, please reveal yourself. I have no problem kicking the shit out of anyone.
I have really turned around my body image. Not that I ever hated my body, but I have definitely struggled at times. “Too skinny..too small” well now I feel like my body is perfect for me. I am tiny, that is how it is. When I gained about 30 pounds, my boobs did get bigger..but I felt uncomfortable in my skin. Not only did I feel bad about how I looked, I also just felt sick a lot. I wasn’t taking care of the inside of my body. I had always wanted to gain weight, but once I had I realized that I did it the wrong way. A cupcake a day definitely contributed to my gluten intolerance.
Anyways today I really looked in the mirror and felt proud that I feel healthy inside and out. I am ok not having C or D cups, my perky Bs are just fine… because this is my natural body, and it is beautiful. =]
I honestly find my abs most appealing in the afternoon, I am not quite sure why. In the mornings they look nice, but in the afternoon they look better shaped.
I am finally seeing some real progress in my biceps. It is so difficult for me to get size on those suckers, but in a few months I anticipate they will be HUGE! Well not huge, but bigger.